Walking the streets of my childhood city. I was showing a guy the sights up and down main street. We went into a florist shop. Creepy. A foreign employee pulled me close and kissed my neck. There was a arrangement with a snake. The person I was showing around is confusing to me. I love her, I am her and I want to be chosen by the person who I can’t visually see but is also me. The narrator self takes the girl to meet my godtather who owns a men’s clothing store. It is crowded but when I find my uncle, the girl falls. I remember thinking in the dream, wow, i can get up knowing I am in real time 74. My dad is with my godfather. It was good seeing him, younger and handsome. I remember desperately wanting to be the one that the narrator picks. I am such a better choice than the other girl “he” likes. I used to in real time have a boyfriend Gary who walked Main St with me. He died at 18.
This dream is rich with symbolism and emotions, drawing from both memories and subconscious desires. Let's break it down:
Walking the Streets of Your Childhood City: Revisiting a place from your past suggests you're reflecting on formative experiences. It often symbolizes a longing for simpler times or a desire to reconnect with aspects of your past that have shaped who you are today.
Showing a Guy the Sights: This may represent a part of you trying to introduce or reconcile past memories with present thoughts or situations. The ambiguity of "the guy" and the revelation that it's linked to yourself suggests this may represent an internal exploration or striving for self-understanding.
The Florist Shop and Foreign Employee: Flowers often symbolize emotions, beauty, and transience. The florist shop being "creepy" and the foreign employee's unexpected action could indicate feelings of vulnerability or discomfort in dealing with certain memories or aspects of yourself. The foreignness might suggest elements or experiences in your life that feel unfamiliar or intrusive.
Snake Arrangement: Snakes can symbolize transformation, healing, or danger. Their presence within a flower arrangement might represent hidden fears or the potential for change within the beauty of life.
The Confusing Person You Love/Are/Want to Be Chosen By: This person likely embodies aspects of your identity and self-worth. The overlap of identities suggests an ongoing struggle or desire to integrate different parts of yourself. The longing to be chosen hints at a need for acceptance and validation, both from others and from yourself.
Meeting Your Godfather and Uncle: These figures often represent wisdom, tradition, or familial legacy. Your interest in introducing the girl (and the confusion about whether you are the girl) might signify seeking approval or support from authoritative elements in your life.
Fall of the Girl and Realization of Real Time: Falling often signifies anxiety, fear of failure, or transition. The realization of real-time age could represent an awakening or acknowledgment of your current state in life, facing the reality of where you are now.
Seeing Your Dad Younger: This appearance may symbolize remembering your father's strength or influence when you were younger, possibly connected to reflections on how those paternal qualities influence your own identity.
Desire to Be the Narrator’s Choice: This strong emotion is about self-validation, possibly rooted in past experiences with love or endorsement. It's a typical reflection of inner competition for approval either from oneself or others around you.
Reference to Gary: Including your late boyfriend suggests unresolved emotions related to loss, love, and the passage of time.
In summary, the dream seems to be a complex interplay of exploring identity (both past and present), seeking validation, remembering and processing past relationships, and grappling with internalized pressures. These aspects are interconnected through your memories, relationships, and self-perception, leading you to explore who you are and where you are going in life.